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Nikki Wallschlaeger


This sold-out chapbook is available as a free ebook. Read or download the PDF here. 

Since these poems are designed to be memes, we have also released them individually as .jpg files. Please feel free to share them, with credit to Nikki (and a link where possible): Meme .jpgs for sharing (500–650 KB each)

“This book presents portraits of Mattel’s ‘Julia’ Barbie doll (produced 1969–70 and modeled after TV star Diahann Carroll), bracketed by meme-style language. It’s a good visual companion to Crawlspace. The poet’s weariness with white male supremacy and female labor comes through perfectly in the wry face of Julia: ‘I wish you were a beer/ instead of a colorblind mansplainer,’ reads one meme. In these pieces, as in Crawlspace, Wallschlaeger hits a delicious pitch somewhere between tragedy and humor; her singular first-person voice persists throughout the work, narrating the energy she draws, like a phoenix, from her own exhaustion.” —Iris Cushing, HYPERALLERGIC

“The writing in I Hate Telling You How I Really Feel is, by turns, thrillingly allusive and thrillingly frank.… I’ve had some difficulty deciding how to quote these poems: for example, should the top text and the bottom text be regarded as a separate line? And what happens when those lines themselves contain enjambments? Wallschlaeger uses the format and the grammar of the meme to disrupt the logistics of poetry, to challenge the rote responses of readers to literary texts. I Hate Telling You How I Really Feel raises fundamental questions about what poetry is: is each image its own poem? Or is the chapbook a single long poem? (And what’s the relationship between the text pieces, which preface and conclude the memes, stretching across the inside flaps of the book?) The questions themselves betray a kind of thinking which Wallschlaeger’s work challenges, indeed uproots: they presume that poems have relatively well-defined boundaries, that they are single, separable objects, with distinct and durable forms. But Wallschlaeger’s is a poetics of multiplication and plurality.” —Toby Altman, Entropy

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Full-color interior on 80# text with gloss
Cardstock cover in Antique Gray Linen
Hand sewn
5.5 x 6 inches
28 pages + 4 text panels printed inside fold-out cover

Bloof Books Chapbook Series
Vol. 3: Issue 4 (2015)
ISSN: 2373-163x

I Hate Telling You How I Really Feel is the first graphic chapbook from Bloof Books, and the fourth in the 2015 series, containing 25 full-color photographs, plus 2 supplementary text pieces by poet-artist Nikki Wallschlaeger.

Trifold design includes introductory text on front flap and inside cover. Another text piece is printed at the inside back cover. The full-color 28-page photo booklet is hand-sewn into the cover. Expands to 16.5 inches wide when fully opened.

A selfie-by-proxy sequence of sorts, each portrait of the Julia doll (Mattel, 1969–1970, after the television series starring Diahann Carrol) combines the ultra-condensed gravitational effect of Wallschlaeger’s poetry, the hyper-consumability of the internet meme, and a Warholian pop-art palette of color, repetition, and cultural reference.

Read an interview with Nikki by Gina Abelkop at Entropy.


Confused friendship with compliance again
All those sad-bloom faces dripping with bunting
I had a nice time so why am I so anxious
It's easy to love someone incomprehensible. It means you never have to apologize.