SHOW UP IN A BODY

Two minutes late is not considered late

but two months

better wear roped pearls back to the machine

for the puppet show starring a nervous radiologist

who never said once don’t worry many are called back

they come here they sit pretty

they tulip around like a doggie after a bath

Somber is not the same thing as sober

I can have fun

For example I didn’t know how rebellious I was until I was caught

Even when I was drinking

I was always sort of sober

Squeeze a pair of tits hard enough 

something comes out

like a mousy laugh moan 

or milk sort of always there 

like back of the fridge milk

dinosaur milk

a memory of calcium

or a lecture about Raphael

and woman squishiness emanating from color

I have a body designed for compression

and a mind designed for apology 

I’m sorry to cause so much trouble

Pretty much you’re terrible she said

Put your arm down 

She touched me right on my somber nothingness

The only other way to detect cancer is to give it to you